...Without warning there was a sound like a strong wind, gale force—no one could tell where it came from. Then, like a wildfire, the Holy Spirit spread, and they started speaking in tongues of fire...

Forty days and forty nights and my rib cage still creeks and groans.

You said you would not leave us as orphans but in all honesty, this feels like being orphaned.

Memories haunt the halls of this labyrinth mind where I search for God and still never find.

God, I'm still blind with vacant eyes.

Eyes that I inherited from my father, that he inherited from his father and his father, and his father's father.

I have a Storm-worn boat for a heart that never seems to find that new world that I see in my dreams at night.

"Fear not. Just wait."


Angelic dialects and cloven tongues.

A fire in my lungs.

But still repeating curses under my breath because they are the only words I can muster up....

WHAT THE Ffff...... Faith.

Too little faith. Maybe I don't have enough faith.

You said if a grain of wheat falls to the earth it won't remain alone but I'm still alone. 

I set sail with hope but now just shipwrecks and broken bones. you called to me from the waves.

I stepped out of this damn boat and sank. 

Every swell capsizes and I cant catch my breath between the waves.


Beginnings (A Midrash for Darwin Day)



I started working on a project a few years ago that I have yet to finish (go figure) becaus life and all. The project is a seven song spoken word album that is a midrash trough the narrative of the book of Genesis called "Beginnings." This particular midrash, which is also the title track, covers the first few chapters of the book of Genesis and is my ode to how science has helped me develop a muchmore  robust faith and a deeper appreciation for the work of Creation.




In the beginning.

There was nothing. Just silence. Silence patiently waiting for something. Something to come from nothing. BANG! A blank canvas painted by the breath of the prexistant! Blinding light and nuclear fission! Stars, black holes, quasars, and galaxies. Explosions like chain reactions igniting space and time, firing off like synapses.


It was good yet not quite perfect. Spinning onward from this beginning unto completion.

Beautiful blues and greens radiating from a rock spinning on its axis around the star where it gets  warmth as it passes. Oceans, skies, and earth swarmed with microbes unto masses. Hundreds, thousands, millions of years in the making. Finally 13 billion years of groaning. The creator finds something amoung the beast to satisfy his longing.


Upright walking.

Hunting and gathering. Awakening!

"Alive! Like I have been dead the whole time! "

Fully aware of his creator. The trinity the very breath in his lungs. From dust to life. Resurrection.




"Love called my name! I am man! Forged from the ashes of star dust and sand!"


Home minded

Home in the end

This home of mine

Where is this home I see in my mind



Beyond the gates!

Transcendent of time!

I see a city with shimmering streets and vibrant lights

I see it's King,

The begotten of all time.

To think I was mere dust beneath the feet of the one who calls galaxies into existence.

If that was not enough now I see love clothing himself in my existence.

I see it! I see it!

I can taste it on my lips but my bones are still reaching for it.

"There are greater things ahead than any we left behind"

That's what you said when you clothed us in our nakedness and and wiped fear from our eyes.

And my God Eden was great but we layed her to waste and

It's so hard to believe but I believe it!

That there is a better home on the horizon!

A home where mercy floods like the sunrise and justice is the visions in all humanities eyes.

A city built on peace and harmony.

This will be the prophets dream!

This will be the hope in the veins of the martyrs!

This will be the heartbeat of humanity!

This is the promise!

That one would come and crush beneath his heel the head of the serpent and bring an end to the darkness!

Blessed are the Refugees, for they are welcome in the Kingdom of God.

Blessed are the Refugees, for they are welcome in the Kingdom of God.

At the base of a hill during the cool afternoon we sit with a multitude of others who have followed a Rabbi from Nazareth out into the countryside. Some of us are waiting expectantly for whatever discourse he is about to give, some of us are here because we just had to know what all the fuss was about, others here because quite frankly we find it hard to believe that anyone from Nazareth has much good to say.

Practicing Resurrection (All Saints Day)

Practicing Resurrection (All Saints Day)

As Christians we await not the destruction and death of creation and the world we now inhabit but rather it's true birth. We know that death is merely a stepping off point between this age and the age in which all things will be set right. The age in which the whole sum of creation will be swallowed up in the divine glory of the incarnate word of God, our Christ. 

Advent For The Rest Of US

Advent For The Rest Of US

So! As you may know, the historical (liturgucal) Church year has become highly important to me over the last couple of years! That being said, one of my biggest goals of mine is to help those that are more unfamiliar with the liturgical year and how it can be super become more acquainted with it.

There's a wolf in my heart!

There's a wolf in my heart!

For the last year I have been working on an epistolary style fiction story on and off as inspiration comes and goes. Below is a short excerpt from the main protagonist Alexander Hall (also the narrator). To give some context he has been shipwrecked on an unknown island(?) after setting sail for a world he has only seen in his dreams. Since losing the ship and washing up on this island he has been stalked by a pack of wolves for days. This entry in his journal comes right after he has a direct run in with the pack leader.

Bible Translations? KJV? NLT? HCSB?

I found this helpful little chart that maps out most of the major translations of scripture and thought it would be something helpful to pass along. Oddly in some circles there is a lot of debate over which translations are the best, but in my experience referencing a wide variety of translations helps enrich my understanding and appreciation of the scriptures themselves. I am personally an ESV junkie! But I typically often reference back to the HCSB because I enjoy how the translation reads, as well as picking up The Message translation from time to time to see the scriptures in a more poetic and descriptive way. 

Just remember that all translations have their upsides and downsides but at the end of the day none of them are actually perfect and we do ourselves a disservice when we limit our study and use to a single translation. 



I tried.

Really, I did.

In the past few years it has become increasingly hard to not severe myself from evangelicalism altogether. I spent years swallowing questions and telling myself I just did not believe hard enough. I even told myself that my heart was just deceiving me. After all it was you that taught me my heart was deceitful above all else, was it not? 

Violence/ War/ Military/ Government: Snapshots from the Church Fathers



This is the first post for a series called #Snapshots where I will be posting excerpts about various topics from the perspective of the early church fathers! My aim is to hopefully create a spark of curiosity that will drive you to dive deeper into the wisdom offered to us by the early church! 

So here we go.... violence, war, military, and worldly governments! 


“Christians, instead of arming themselves with swords, extend their hands in prayer.”

—Athanasius of Alexandria (293AD – 373AD)


“But now inquiry is being made concerning these issues. First, can any believer enlist in the military? Second, can any soldier, even those of the rank and file or lesser grades who neither engage in pagan sacrifices nor capital punishment, be admitted into the church? No on both counts—for there is no agreement between the divine sacrament and the human sacrament, the standard of Christ and the standard of the devil, the camp of light and the camp of darkness. One soul cannot serve two masters—God and Caesar…But how will a Christian engage in war—indeed, how will a Christian even engage in military service during peacetime—without the sword, which the Lord has taken away? For although soldiers had approached John to receive instructions and a centurion believed, this does not change the fact that afterward, the Lord, by disarming Peter, disarmed every soldier.” 

“Under no circumstances should a true Christian draw the sword.”

—Tertullian (155 – 230AD)


"The Christian poor are an army without weapons, without war, without bloodshed, without anger, without defilement.”

—Clement of Alexandria (150AD – 214AD)


"Say to those that hate and curse you, you are our brothers!"

—Theophulis of Antioch (412AD) 


“Take heed, then, often to come together to give thanks to God, and show forth His praise. For when ye assemble frequently in the same place, the powers of Satan are destroyed, and the destruction at which he aims is prevented by the unity of your faith. Nothing is more precious than peace, by which all war, both in heaven and earth, is brought to an end.”

 —Ignatius of Antioch (35AD – 110AD)


“Christians have changed their swords and their lances into instruments of peace, and they know not now how to fight.”

—Irenaeus (180AD)


“The devil is the author of all war.”

“We, who used to kill one another, do not make war on our enemies. We refuse to tell lies or deceive our inquisitors; we prefer to die acknowledging Christ.”

—Justin Martyr (138AD)


“I threw down my arms for it was not seemly that a Christian man, who renders military service to the Lord Christ, should render it by earthly injuries.”

“It is not lawful for a Christian to bear arms for any earthly consideration.”

 —Marcellus (? – 298AD)


“We have come in accordance with the counsel of Jesus to cut down our arrogant swords of argument into plowshares, and we convert into sickles the spears we formerly used in fighting. For we no longer take swords against a nation, nor do we learn anymore to make war, having become sons of peace for the sake of Jesus, who is our Lord.”

—Origen of Alexandria (185 – 254AD)


“[Christians] are not allowed to kill, but they must be ready to be put to death themselves… it is not permitted the guiltless to put even the guilty to death.” “God wished iron to be used for the cultivation of the earth, and therefore it should not be used to take human life.”

 —Cyprian (250AD)


“The soldiers of Christ require neither arms nor spears of iron.” “The servants of God do not rely for their protection on material defenses but on the divine Providence.”

 —Ambrose (338 – 397AD)


"I  do not wish to be a ruler. I do not strive for wealth. I refuse offices of military command"

 —Tatian (2nd Century AD)


“A soldier, being inferior in rank to God, must not kill anyone. If ordered to, he must not carry out the order, nor may he take an oath to do so. If he does not accept this, let him be dismissed from the church. Anyone bearing the power of the sword, or any city magistrate, who wears purple, let him cease from wearing it at once or be dismissed from the church. Any catechumen or believer who wishes to become a soldier must be dismissed from the church because they have despised God.”

“A person who has accepted the power of killing, or a soldier, may never be received [into the church] at all.”

—Hippolytus (170 – 230AD)


As you can see from this handful of excerpts the Church Fathers seem to unanimously agree on these subjects. Truth be told, every major influence and voice in the church all agreed on these subjects for the first three hundred years or so of the church's history. Now, I do not offer these quotes as information that should be blindly accepted as truth, but rather information that should challenge the way we live as Christians today. These perspectives are for sure a challenge to the typical consensus of American Christianity. And for me, they forced me to reconsider much of my theological and political positions. 


So, in light of the Church Fathers (Some the very disciples of the Apostles) how do their positions challenge the positions you have been handed in the American church?


Through whom whose peace brings all wars to an end,


Pax Christus: A word to Christians on Memorial Day.

Pax Christus: A word to Christians on Memorial Day.

Jesus came offering a new way to see and live in the world. A way that stood in direct opposition to Rome and its gospel of Pax Romana. A way that the apostles and church Fathers were so convinced had the power to reshape all of creation that they were willing to die for it. But not by going out with a fight. No! The gospel of Jesus led them to abandoning the sword and the false idea that war was a viable means of progress.

Echo: Prayer Manager (Sort of a review)

Echo: Prayer Manager (Sort of a review)

 “Echo’s number one goal is to help people pray. Whether it be to simply keep track of prayer requests, give space to engage with God, or simply help remind people to pray… Echo is a tool to help Christ-followers engage with God.”



 "Before time dawned and space was called to be, before the heavens were stretched out and filled with a sea of stars, before the earth was summoned and filled with people and life and endless beauty, before there was anything, there was the Father, Son and Spirit and the great dance."

-C. Baxter Kruger

I Don't Know Sh*t

I Don't Know Sh*t

This weekend I turned the ripe old age of twenty-five. This reality is so strange to me. On one hand I feel like twenty-five years has gone by in a blink of an eye,  yet on the other it feels like I have lived a hundred lives.

If I am being honest, getting older gives me anxiety.

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