I have been working on a spoken word album called 'Beginnings.' That is a series of midrashim through the book of Genesis. Midrash is a Jewish way of exegeting the scriptures which was often done via story telling. It is essentially a way to enflesh the text and bring out the words and themes that exist between the lines of scripture. I am super excited about this project! And hopefully I will become satisfied enough with my midrashim of these stories soon so I can record them. In this midrash I take the perspective of Isaac after the events that unfolded on Mount Moriah.
*Italics indicates Abram's inner dialogue during the episode where YHWH tells him Sodom andGomorrah are to be judged.
(The Binding of Isaac)
"I can not forget the feeling of those ropes tied so tightly around my wrists. There has not been a single night that I have stopped shaking since you held that knife above my chest, father. You just kept rambling underneath your breath about this god, your god! The god of promises? The god who provides? But I think you could not hold your tongue still because you were yet to be convinced of all the lies about provisions you dreamed up in your head.... I do not understand...
I remember you telling me how you stood between this god and a kingdom that eats their own young. You, a mere man, questioning the divine. Interceding on behalf of a beastly nation built on deeds of wickedness."
[Isaac recounting his fathers story]
(What kind of god is this?)
"If there even be one righteous beyond the gates of Sodom would you not spare them?"
(Is he a god of mercy or is he like the rest? Does he demand blood or is he quick to forgive?)
"You are the god of promises! The god that dines with mortal flesh! The god that calls me his friend... Surely you will do right.
Surely you will not be like the rest!"
"You argued with this god to spare that nation of evil men, but when it came to taking my life you were eager to marry that blade to my neck. I will never understand father. I will never understand why you did not question him like you did when you stood on that hill and he told you about the Hell that would fall from the sky. Why did you not question him? Are we supposed to bow to monsters? Am I not more precious to you than them? Am I not more precious to you than even Lot and the rest of our kin who chose to wade neck deep into their filth? I will never understand!
I am so full of questions! And I want nothing to do with your god. I don't know if your head was riddled with delusions or if you were truly commanded but I am not going to take any chances. I can not take any chances. I'll stay with my mother. I'll live in her tent as long as it means I can avoid a monster whether that be you or Him."